another goodbye

I really hate having to blog about this. :-(

I said I'll be back, and I'm here now.

Thanks for waiting, you guys. I would've gotten here sooner except I was too busy wallowing.

Am back indeed but alas! Not with great news though.

Here's a very nice photo of Shadow (taken by Gab, of course), he who was most misunderstood. This psycho cat bit me once and scratched me many times in the past six years of his existence. He'd also done the same thing to almost all my family members. My dad was most traumatized, he even had to get anti-rabies shots from RITM because of the nasty bite.

Shad was also very KSP. He showed his territoriality by pissing on people. Yep! Pissing on them by letting out a fine spray. And Gab was a victim. She made the mistake of greeting him, saying "Hello there, Shadow friend!" but then patting another cat (Pumpkin).

Two or three days ago, he walked into the front yard walking like a drunken cat. He seemed very lethargic too. Gab and I thought about bringing him to the vet but then didn't actually get to do it. I was scared of getting bitten again. :-(

I'm glad I found Shadow early today though when I finally located him, he was already drawing his last few breaths. I woke up at around 4AM, only to find out we don't have classes so I went to the front yard to look for him and I find him just lying there  underneath the citrus tree. He was desperately trying to meow as I called his name but no sound was coming from his mouth. Just gasps of air. Atleast I was able to say goodbye, and though I was unable to get the vet for him, I hope he knew I was there for him. I still feel so sad and guilty though.

And so there we were at the backyard again, doing what we just did last month for Ponks. Gab, my brother Andrew, Uncle Beck and I were at it. This time it seemed easier, less laborious, prolly because we picked the right spot. Or maybe because we're getting used to digging too. It was all done in under two hours.

I hope I won't have to do this again soon though. :-(

Here's another photo taken by Gab... it's actually my all-time fave. No matter how psychotic Shadow seemed, this is how I choose to remember him... as our guard cat. Always on patrol. See him on top of the roof, surveying his domain... and always, always wating for my home-coming.

I'll miss you, Shadow cat.

SNIFFS.

Comments

[annabanana]

doms,
im so sorry! hugs to you and gabs!

[BabyPink]

:(

i'm sorry to hear this, D. napaluha ako sa kwento mo.

*hugs!*

[coolclamote]

argh! not shadow - the one who runs into the tire of the incoming car???? argh. sorry to hear about that. macky must have been missing them so he them called. argh. perhaps, this means that more and new cats need your love - just keep your gates open.

[doms]

Gab and Les: Thanks! Need a REAL hug next time I see you gals.

Balb: Asa pa ako na magkita tayo thishir or nextshir kaya. But you owe me that pic of you and Shad. You're one of the privileged few na naka-karga sa kanya. Even I do not have any pic where I have him very near me, he he he. Send mo ha? Teynks! :-)

[balbonics]

Noooo...

[Les]

so sorry to hear this, natts. *hugs!*

do you suspect the same cause?

[gab]

bye, shad-shad friend! :_(